Colten's 1st birthday is in less than a week. Up until this point, I have not wanted to talk about it. I still tear up if I stop and think about it too much. Last night, I was nursing him (he is nursing less and less now) and I saw there and thought, "Wow, this could be the last time I will ever nurse him. He could wake up tomorrow and decide he was done." I started bawling. I really thought I was ready to be done nursing and to wean him, but once I really started to think about it, it just made me sad! I can't believe that it has already been a year. It was almost a year ago that I was so worried about my milk coming in and whether he was latching on properly. Now, I'm worried about him being done! Time has flown by so fast, and that's just from the nursing aspect of things.
Now, onto something happier. Like I said, his birthday is in less than a week. His party is in 8 days. I am NOT ready. I have so much to do to get ready for his party! I have known now for MONTHS what I was planning and what I wanted to do. I even bought most of the supplies and they have been sitting in our guest bedroom. I just haven't gotten around to doing everything!!
I know it's going to be so cute and I would love to share with you what all I am doing for it, but I want it to be a surprise, so I'm going to zip my lips now. BIt's a sock monkey theme, but that's all I'm saying! Believe me, I will share plenty of pictures after the party is over!!
So, now I'm stressed. I'm trying to work on planning his party, keep up with a baby who is now walking (see next post), work my partime job, and keep up with all of my regular stuff!! I know I did it to myself by putting it all off, but now I'm stressed!
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